Sorry I Have Been Sick

Up-Date9/24/04; Went to the Ear Doc. Again, did the ole-suck my brains out thing again with my ear. Then made me go thru a MRI on my sinuses to see if I had a problem their, was fine. Said I still have a hole in my ear and still have a 60% hearing lost which is why I'm tired all the time, said time will make me better and to take more Meds. And now ear drops to help heal the ear. So will see him in a-couple of weeks again. Never knew how special my hearing was till I lost it...I think I will live its been 4wks now, I Blew out my ear drum and had a really bad ear infection. finally after 3-wks I got my damn health Insurance, to approve for me to go see a ear/nose-Doc. Within a week of taking what he gave me I'm finally feeling better. Its amazing what the right pills, and person can do to make you well>>hehe. When I went in a week ago I had already been on 3-different meds. And nothing was helping me and I felt really bad and My ear hurt like hell, and wasn't getting any better. Well he put this, Ele.Sucking machine..LOL in my ear and, I thought he was trying to suck out what brains I had left...Hurt like hell, but said he had to get all the puss and crap out of it because I had blow-out my ear drum-out. But it was still fix-able even if it meant surgery..I thought oh god!!! So they threw me in a box that looked like a Mimi -walk-in freezer and said they were going to check my hearing.(I thought good because for a minute I thought they were going to put me on ICE, by the looks of the box) After Testing me found out, I had lost 60% of my hearing in my right ear and that was why I couldn't hear shit, and felt like I wanted to just shoot myself to put me out of my misery. Because my teenage daughter said, she did care about me but, I had been sick to long and she was getting sick just watching and, listening to me boo-how all the time :( .. hehe, but you know I'm feeling better and I think I am going to be okay, I am even some what starting to hear a bit in the crappy old ear. I just wanted to tell everyone why I haven't been posting much of anything the last feel weeks been so sick. Going back to the Docor next week again we'll see...Thank-you all for taking the time to stop and read my Blog it means a lot to me when people leave comments or send me articles to post...Bye